I kind of internally freaked out on Saturday morning.
Ok. If I’m being completely honest here, I completely freaked out.
I was at home, and this wave of panic suddenly overtook me, and I felt like I had a bajillion things to do between school and church responsibilities. My heart started to race and I got horribly edgy. I could only think about what needed to get done and how I was going to do it. But over the course of 3 and half hours, I completed three small papers, studied for a test and wrote a devotion for the church Advent booklet. The day turned out to be incredibly productive, but emotionally damaging and unnecessary. That’s the thing about stress though. In the moment, you can’t see the big picture, and frankly, you don’t want to. I had just never experienced that level of anxiety before…or in a long time, at least.
The weekend improved, as yesterday the youth group carved pumpkins and then hosted a trunk at the trunk-or-treat. All of them dressed in costume and played their character, which cracked me up. I’m still new to the position of youth director, and I now understand so much more the preparation that goes into the meetings, but there’s so much reward when you see them having fun. Here’s some pictures from the night.
Yep. It’s a good job.